It’s the third day of the lockdown, and my friend texted about the church being open today for mass celebration. So I made an attestation from the Covid Tracing app and went to the cathedral. Today is All Saints Day, a Catholic holiday.
It’s my first time to go out since the lockdown started and I don’t really like it much because I have to fill up an attestation to justify my presence outside. I would rather stay indoors. But during the 1st lockdown, I also rarely go out and it almost drove me nuts, trying to overcome cabin fever. We can still go out but, in order not to defeat the purpose of this lockdown, we all have to respect the rules, and most especially to stay indoors as much as we could, and only go out when we really have to. Gosh, I have another mission this week, an appointment at the Prefecture, so I have to go out again, and just thinking about it is making me apprehensive. 
Today is the first day of November and the tradition in my culture for All Saints’ Day is to light up a candle to remember my family and ancestors who passed. I’m going to light up one tonight, and this one is most especially to my grandparents, two of whom I never met and my grandma who passed 3 years ago and I dearly missed.
Currently
Reading. A Little History of the World by E.H. Gombrich that I bought from Antibes Bookstore before the lockdown
Writing. I’m at the Chapter 4 at the moment of the book I’m trying to write. They say there’s no timeline on when to publish a book, and I believe I have all the time in the world, hahaha
Listening. None
Smelling. Fresh laundry. Hmmmm… 🙂
Wishing. For this pandemic to be over, so, I can go home and visit the family.
Hoping. For peace. There is a lot going on in the world lately. It broke my heart to hear another violent incidents in Nice and in Jeddah, in the US, and the super typhoon in the Philippines.
Wearing. Shorts and shirt. It’s only 18c outside. LOL
Loving. This afternoon, binge-watching on all those cheesy, romantic movies on Netflix and Amazon Prime, haha.
Needing. To clear my mind with a lot of things right now. After dropping my decision last week, slowly, I’m getting over my anxieties. I’m glad that my family and best friends are always just a phone call away every time I need someone to talk to.
Feeling. Peaceful right now. I was just talking to this guy I dated a few months back last night. We’re just friends now, nothing more, and I’m better with that. My friends always tell me that it’s not possible. Maybe not, I don’t know. But what I know is that I am at peace now. I know what I want and life is continuously presenting many opportunities for me. There will be challenges along the way, that’s for sure, but that’s what makes it pretty exciting and interesting.
Wandering Pinay 